twenty o'ten here you come

and so begins the new year.

i tried to reflect upon 2009, and felt like an avanlanche was coming after me and i had no time to turn back and look.

strange, but yes, i felt chased out of the last year.

and now i rest at the bottom, with a heap of snowballed events, lotsa good and bad all tangled inside.

but it's a big white snowball, and i like to think of white as purity, something that gleams of hope and new beginnings.

so will 2010 be.

i pray to make better decisions in better timing
that means, stop procrastinating in real words.

i pray to be more others-centered.
this year revealed a very ugly part of me, and while i hate it, i must deal with it and be a better person.

i pray to be more money wise.
that means, less cabs actually

i pray to be more wise with my heart.
that means, sleeping earlier when i should.

i pray to not forget so easily.
that means, memorising certain things and rewriting them out if i need to

i pray to pray more often.
even if it takes me to ponder longer before meals.

i pray to write my brother letters.
that means, start already!

i pray that i'll look back at this list, and smile back in achievement.