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about my day today.

i've never felt so alone in the office for a long time. the shifting of the next-door neighbours didn't help to ease the loneliness also. no more cooking smells, no more children chatter, no more shy sophie who'd only wave to us from behind the door, no more busy june with many errands to run.. oh, i miss them. it's all so quite next door now, that i think the office is the noisest unit of the block, or the estate even, during the day.

i nearly missed my first appointment. realised i've been dependent on other people's reminder to get ready, to leave the office, the write down directions, but in one swift jump, hop and skip and a change of clothes, i was out of the office and made it in time in the van (i was contemplating taking a cab! coz' i hate to drive when i'm flustered), thankfully it was very near and i got an easy lot.

after the meeting, it was about lunch. actually no, the meeting was during lunch time, 12.30pm - 1.30pm. between eating sentosa mooncakes alone in the office, and da-bao-ing something from novena back to eat alone in the office, i decided to pamper myself and got myself a nice (and expensive) sandwich from cedele.

it was more desk work in the office, and it was quiet on the computer as well. becuase my usual kakis was down by one, coz' someone went offline in the afternoon, i think to catch his flight back to SG. but thankfully, there was still bonny online! whom i can just rant and rave to at the click of the mouse.
and i listened to Hillsongs' Shout Your Fame and loved it.

went for another hurried meeting, this time because the client only arranged to meet on the day itself. messed up my plans a little, but it was short and sharp and i was out of the office in half hour.

back to the office, to do more desk work. and little did i know, time passed and i had to leave the office for LY's place for dicipleship class. but before i left, i called up this urgent enquiry, only to get annoyed by his cheapskate attitude. don't care if he doesn't want to do with us!

it's been so long since i went to LY's place, and the feeling felt so familiar, seeing familiar faces in the same setting that i spent a lot of time on...for dicipleship class, CG, Alpha. and i'm glad we're back at it again. the fellowship was good, and re-learning what it means to be a diciple of Christ really blew me away, okay, maybe just a few strands of my hair got blown by the wind from the fan. two words - desire and decision. and i think the hardest part of being a disciple beyond wanting to be one, is deciding and acting on the decision to be one. but also, we realised that it's too easy to focus on the costs of dicipleship, rather than the fruits and the sweetness of being like Christ. LY's shared an example of what Dr Chia said that we'll be so natural, that going the extra mile is second-nature, that if we don't do it, it makes us uncomfortable.

i desire.
now i gotta decide.

beauty

in so much as
a squeeze on the arm
and the right question at the right time from the right person
an unexpected phone call that lasts for 15 mins